While I’m glad I acknowledged and celebrated my last scheduled infusion, I also emotionally jumped the gun and now have several weeks with chemicals in my blood making me tired and weak. In short today and for some time I’m still in the midst of treatment and I feel it. I’m looking forward to a big appointment with wonderful Dr. Bicher and to getting these chemicals GONE so I start to feel more normal. I’d wanted to go to the Climate march SO much, but just didn’t feel strong enough to do so. Four for 4 – no Women’s march, Tax march, Science march, or Climate march. Yesl, I’m a week away from the end of this cycle.
All of this makes me think of a wonderful reading by Thich Nhat Hanh.
Our true home is in the present moment. To live in the present moment is a miracle. The miracle is not to walk on water. The miracle is to walk on the green Earth in the present moment, to appreciate the peace and beauty that are available now. Peace is all around us — in the world and in nature — and within us — in our bodies and our spirits. Once we learn to touch this peace, we will be healed and transformed. It is not a matter of faith; it is a matter of practice. We need only to find ways to bring our body and mind back to the present moment so we can touch what is refreshing, healing, and wondrous.
Dear God – yes to bringing Alexa’s mind and body back to the present moment. The beauty of the dogwoods this year is extraordinary. They are so full and they are around every corner. That too is about healing as the fungus that is killing them has paused for this year at least.